I GREW UP NEVER FEELING LIKE I WAS ENOUGH...
All of my life, my family has preached that the smaller the body, the prettier the girl. I grew up knowing I was beautiful, but always if I lost a little weight. I grew up never feeling like I was enough. I'd never be skinny enough, and if I wasn't skinny enough, I'd never be pretty enough.
I had finally found a place in my life where I felt beautiful. I was a full-figured teen mom of twins. But at 20, I had my third child and it all came back. My body was gone! I'd have an 11lb baby, lose the weight, finally be getting happy with myself and I'd get pregnant again. I have never been the size I am now until I had my 5th unplanned child and I was too tired to jump in the gym and lose all the weight again. I mean, I have already done this 3 times. I was tired.
Now, I'm a bigger full-figured mom of five kids at the age of 26. I'm bigger now than I have ever been. There was like a year and a half I didn't go anywhere. I did most of my shopping online.
About 8 months ago, I joined Cheyanne's group and I wanted to do it but I put it off saying "maybe when I lose my weight" or "where would I get the money for this?" Well, a few months ago, I saw she was doing a promotion and I was like "well, I can go and do it and I don't HAVE to buy any pictures". I thought it'd be fun and get me out of my comfort zone. Ya' know, rock things up a little.
I was so scared the day I went to take them. I thought so many times about backing out, but with the encouragement of my husband and mother, I was there doing it. I went in and got my hair and make up done and was just chatting with everyone. I almost forgot I was there to do the pictures and then it came down to it and it was a breeze. I wasn't self-conscious anymore.
Cheyanne made me feel really comfortable, gave me breaks when needed, and didn't laugh as my whole body shook trying to hold a pose. When I saw them for the 1st time, I was with my husband. I think I was more scared to look at them than I was to take them, but it wasn't what I expected. I almost cried when I saw my pictures. I didn't see what everyone else saw. I didn't see a fat and disgusting naked girl like I thought I would.
I saw beauty. It was like seeing myself for the 1st time ever!
I went there that day, like I said, not thinking I'd buy any pictures, but I ended up buying the Silver Collection plus 5 extra images in my album! It was the 1st time I have had photos taken of myself that I thought were truly beautiful. So, to me, it was so worth it because I went in that day thinking I was NOTHING and left feeling like the most BEAUTIFUL person in the world and that is all thanks to Cheyanne and her team!
They are the most down to earth, easy going, real life people just like everyone else! They went above and beyond for me that day and made me see myself in a whole new light!